Today was very epic. Sadly didnt do much mugging. Sigh.

Hmm anw teacher's day today. Went to canteen in the morning. Met missang jiayi and rongying. They had to go some briefing for class comm. I wanted to gl along but i saw the lt alot of ppl so i left. I scared i take up a seat then the real ppl who are supposed to be there no space haha. So went back to gl. Randoming around until we went down. Flag raising was considerably short. Had the quite fail red shirt white shirt thingo. Haha then went zhengxinyuan. That one even more fail (lol no offense planning comm) but i mean like the chant thingo was o.o kiat kiat was embarrassing himself lol. Yeah concert was quite cool. Got aircon so thats a plus point. And guess what? We are stuck at the back again -.- Can they just change the seating arrangement once in awhile -.- Anw yeah the concert was quite nice. PA was not as failed as i thought and the standard of the performances was (Y) Haha vivien laura and yasmine (is that how u spell it? o.o) Were damn cool. Hahaha kudos! Mr tan give vivien some weird blue thingo. Hahaha i got a feeling that it is his student give him then he dont want. hahahaha. Hmm anw the fiesta thing was quite ok. Cause everyone was highing and all. Took alot of unglam candids hahahaha. Yeah. Cant wait for it to be up on fb. Lol i ate lotsa junk food, and took that as my lunch. Hmm anw after the thing stone in school quite long. Cause cy was debating whether to go for the sc celebrations or not. In the end we decided to stay so i went with sarah first. Cabbed to her house cause she had to put her books first. Then took bus to shps. Was abit early so we stoned outside for awhile. Haha then saw random ppl who daoed us. :( So later we went inside haha. Sigh so nostalgic. Like going back to the pass T.T Kinda overwhelmed by emotions lol. Then went to GE room there and stoned alot. Talked to some of the teachers lol. They still can recognise me hahaha. Anw didnt talk much to some ppl sigh. Cause like abit weird cause so long never see everyone le. Then also dunno what to talk about. Heh i suppose it got better after kibs came (omg i seriously think she shrunk) and hugged me :) Haha felt like warm and fuzzy inside and kinda brings me back to the old days haha (lol i sound so OLD) Haha then started talking to random ppl. WEEEEE. Went to tampines mall there. We went to buy ice-cream then go to the open area to eat. Haha sigh im gonna get fat. Haha it was really nice to talk to everyone again. Haha wiki came :O Yeah he is as epic as usual. Then he was like our source of entertainment, doing weird imitations of his teachers. Haha whenever he stopped talking there was awkward silence, then he will start again. Haha yeah. Then took mrt home with kibs leen and nikki (oh gosh she is TALLLLLLLL) Hmm yeah thats basically my day. Shit i haven't done anyhow today :( MUG TMR D< (Shit did i say that yesterday?)

I know its stupid but it still hurts so bad.

JC

Normal day i suppose. Random lessons. Fell asleep during physics AGAIN. Ugh save me T.T Heh lets not talk about boring lessons. After school got smc session. Then later went to run with wanxin diane and yifei. Eric and jiatai was randoming around haha. Hilarious haha. Hmm yeah nothing much lor. Actually wanted to go take circle line home but a 158 came so i just took 158 home. Haha quite fail. Hmm yeah dunno what to blog about le la. Not in a good mood now D<

It hard to just stand a look as you walk away.

JC

Today. Was. Damn. Epic.

Standard one comp in the morning. Went there slightly earlier to write notes/do saikang. Haha i was casualty so it was quite epic. Peter and his slaves did make up on me lol. Looks quite cool :D Haha actually be casualty also quite xinku lor. Cause its like one after another, no break. And have to sit up with legs straight. Plus immobilise. Sure numb one. Haha from what i see (team case) I was quite proud of all the stdones performance :D Good job! Heh had emo talk after that. Aiyoh the emo ppl please dont emo le ok? Dactyl FTW! Anw went to macs. I very cheapo haha. Cause no money so i bought a large coke and stole fries from other ppl. Haha so much calories must burn right? haha so i have a brain workout first. Did some homework. Not very effective tho. oh yeah i got a vid of jiqin playing the piano, miss ang pls come find me. haha then later physical workout. Went to play volleyball with seniors. Damn epiccccc. Was super epic fail at the start and kept hitting the ball out of court haha. Sorry seniors who have to run and get the ball for us :x Haha but slowly got the hang of it. Haha yeah. Told my mum will got home at 3-4+ I played till 7 -.- Hahaha 22 missed calls and 2 smsed. Best. Haha so i just went home lor. Lucky they went out. If not sure tio gl one. Hmm yeah. Oh yeah sigh, my shoe and sock now has a hole :( Haha cause i kinda dived/squat down to dig a ball. Then my shoe dragged along the floor then now got hole :( Haha went home for dinner. Mum dapao-ed sapofan for me. I felt not enough flavour so i added some of the chippetole macs fries thingo. Haha tasted... quite nice actually. Sigh havent accomplished much tonight. Cause i was watching 'a series of unfortunate events' haha quite cool la. Tho i dont really get it cause i missed the first part. Haha my parents aint home yet. Wheee. Tmr... do hw and mj lor.

Sorry.

JC

OMG its std1 comp tomorrow! :O Haha jiayou standard onesssss! Not just those from Dactyl but everyone. You all have been training very hard for this. I've been quite touched by your attitude towards this competition. I've seen great improvement in all of you guys. Hope you guys will be able to perform your best tomorrow and show everyone how awesome you are.

Hmm anw today was quite ok i suppose. Got back maths trigo test. Damn fking screwed. Did super badly. Sigh. Stupid coconut balls. Hmm PE was damn epic. For the 2nd time in the whole term we have outdoors pe. More fun then the previous time cause we used bigger goalpost. Lots of epic fail moments haha. Hmmm... LA was ok bah. More Macbeth. Then physics was ... Shit man i need to catch up soon. Slept in lessons today T.T Bio was quite epic haha. Gl ttm. Hmm then later lunch then comp train. CT was quite ok la. Abit slow paced at the start but things started to pick up. Was quite proud of their foot drill :D Hmm yeah. Super draggy and all. And i gl tooked circle line home. So got home at like 8+ But the journey home was damn epic. miss ang was very funny haha. Sorry Jiqin XD HAPPY SJAB DAY! Hahaha ok im quite randomly highing now. Anw, i've got quite alot of stuff that needs to be done sigh. Ect, read Macbeth/try understand physics. Hiaz. Need to chiong D< And i dont have pretty paper to write notes on :( Oh yeah, happy birthday chingying! Rock on!

You already know it but it still hurts when you realise you are just not that important.

JC

I feel kinda accomplished now.

Today was a fairly short day. Quite alot of slacking. Geog slack, maths just do the assignment so quite relaxed. Recess slacked. 1st period of LA slacked. Then 2nd period tio gl abit but ok. Sigh LA test next week. Quite gg sigh. Hmm anw... oh yeah chem. Hmm quite slack bah. Lesson ended before i knew it. Then later went to run with the std2s. Haha they ran 10 rounds i think. I missed the first 2 rounds cause they started first. Then i pangsee-ed them at my 6th round cause i was too hungry haha. Yeah anw ate lunch then started standardonecamp meeting. Haha if you happen to be a std1 stalking this (i'll be very o.o) be assured that your camp will be an awesome one :D Hmm yeah nth much. Oh yeah yesterday i hurt my chin while doing pumping -.- Went down too fast haha. I know it looks like i burst a pimple but its not -.- ANWWWW today i manged to complete my bio reflections (thanks for helping me print!) erm the chem hw (chem is really interesting now) and chem file (content page abit screwed, i dont like D<) yeah and fena failed today. cass: *scream* one second later fena: *screams* fena: COPYCAT haha fail right? Yeah anw tmr got comp train. The last one :O OMG DACTYL JIAYOU!!!!!

I'll be your guardian angel.

JC

Screwed maths test. Yup, thank you very much. Nth much happened during smc session. Tried to study but failed. Freak still got bio reflections. Heh i went to run today. Sigh i think im deproving. Now with all the mugging hard to find time to run.

Its been raining on my cheeks.

JC

Today was quite a boring day. Maths was o.o Just did the ws lor. Ok la, its starting to make sense to me. Hmm. CME wasnt really listening. Neither was i in ACE. Was sleeping through most of it. Haha i got 12 for my essay wtf. Last min work ftw. Hmm... Assembly was damn hilarious. Had a presentation about MOT water GP, which i am unaware about haha. Lol and we didnt even use physics la -.- Its called randomlybuyabottlethatlooksstreamlinedandattachaconetoitsoitlookslikeaboat. Yeah haha. Not bad la, relax for one hour in aircon room. Hmm also cant remember what happened today. Hmm... Ct was ok i suppose. They learnt hormat quite fast. But i still need to teach them how bang loud. Hmm yeah, eoy stress starting le. Post gonna be shorter and short yeah? Im spending too long blogging le. Need start mugging >.<

I dont know how i'll make it.

JC

Today was quite an interesting day. My mood was totally ruined in the morning by my mum. Im not a damned kid anymore.


Anw, i went to school. Mood started picking up during SJ. Hmmm, kinda released my anger shouting command loudly i guess o.o Nearly zaosia-ed during the end but i still managed to keep my dignity. Yeah then PT. Ok PT was quite fun. First part was abit sian cause the std1 were quite chui. I was also like abit tired. (been damn tired recently, tho I've been sleeping quite early) But then later things started to pick up. Haha then i was damn high. Was cheering until my voice died. Really got sexy voice lor. Oh yeah, new fact i learnt today. After a long RT with hardly any water breaks, just plain water taste heavenly. Haha sorry ruiqi for NEARLY emptying your bottle. I was nice and left a little (unlike what i to do to patty ;p) Hmm oh yeah, got a talk by maam huaxin about like AWOL stuff and she was randomly praising everyone haha. Epic. And like any other usual activity, it dragged so i didnt bother going church le. Cause sure late one. (Maam if you are reading this, which would be quite scary, I really dont blame you haha. I think it was really nice of you to do that) Yeah wanted to go for lunch but missang still talking to sirweilong so everyone had to wait for her haha. So went macs to eat. Was quite epic. Sat with missang (smc2sc) and yihfang(sm1sc) :O Haha was quite fun la. Was talking about the individual trainings. You could call it gossiping but i am gonna call it a sharing session where we can learn from each other. Heh i think we should do a exchange programme between smc1 and smc2. Hmm anw, i think that because the squad is split up, we kinda have more things to talk about. Hopefully it will help us bond even more and not tear us apart. Being physically apart does not have to mean we will drift emotionally apart. It will just allow us to treasure each other more. <3 class="Apple-style-span">Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Heh i dont know who to write to... I miss so many people. I missed all the friend I ever had. Those from kindergarten. Those from primary school. Those from my student care. Those from 2L'09. I really miss all of you. I just wanna turn back time and relive all those memories. (haha POP) anyone has a time turner? and i miss you

I wont let nobody hurt you. I'll stand by you.




JC

Haha today was quite an epic day.

Rained heavily in the morning. Shoes and pants got wet :( And i didnt even step in any puddle)
Hmm maths in the morning. As usual i was like omgwtfbbqareyoucrazymrlim? Then slowly understood lor. Haiz gimme log back D: Heh anw, twas pe next. And guess what? It was raining. Or at least it stopped. But the field was like super muddy and all. Dont want play soccer. So played table tennis haha. Damn fun. I raped kx in the chest with a pingpong ball haha. Hmm yeah. LA was ok. Physics damn boring. Nearly fell asleep. Then i really slept through chinese haha. Aweseomeeeeee (Y) Hmm comp train later. Not bad. Covered quite alot of stuff. It was quite fun too :D Was doing really bad drawings on the board to teach FA haha. Lol, blindfolded footdrill FTW! Haha yeah. Went home with cass, mel and laura. Heh yeah. Lol i got Glee album from sheryl but cant seem to copy leh :( Meh. Sadded. Haha nvm glee rocks :D

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
I suppose this has to go out to my primary school friends, esp the 4 of you. I mean like we were really close and all. It was really cool. I still see the frenz4eva keychain we all got but its just hard to believe. Its not that i dont want to its just weird to start talking. Sigh. I miss you guys :(

non-existent

JC

I actually got home early today. Stayed in school awhile do hw with vivian and kx. Wanted to mug but dunno what to mug so i went home (crap still got bio reflections :O) (haha that looks like a smiley with a big nose, ok nvm im digressing) OK rewind.

Hmm, nothing interesting happened today bah. FD in the morning, taught them new drills. Yeah nothing interesting. Was slacking the whole maths lessons (and i cut my nails too) cause i finished the whole worksheet haha. Cause i didnt hear mrlim when he told us our hw so i just did everything during chinese yesterday. Oh yeah speaking of chinese, today's chinese lesson was damn epic. Alot of gling. Teacher didnt really seem to care. Richard Chow licked the table and spat on it lor o.O zhanglaoshi made him go clean it haha. Yeah today nothing much lor. Wanted to go run but no one to run with :( Oh yeah very freaky, my stomach was making weird sloshing/waterly sounds while i was doing situps just now o.o Scary. Hmm i think i should go draw up a study plan (omg mugger!) tho i doubt i stick to it haha. Ima mugger wanna be. I just cant stick to my schedule. Haiz im abit tired now. Maybe i'll go take a nap after i bathe...

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Meh ._. Hey there.
This firstly goes out to anyone that might have been offended by me (yeah im sure there is a whole list) Yeah i've always been reckless in what i say or do. Im quite sure alot of you dont like it. Sorry. I'll change. I'll try.
Sorry for causing so much pain and hurt. I swear I'll make it up to you.

Insignificant.

JC

Wahahahaha i actually made it through today.

Today was really a killer lor. I woke up freaking tired. Fell asleep again till my mum woke me up. Heh and i slept at 10.30 yesterday. Crazy lor. I sleep so early ended up more tired then sleep at 12 or smth. Meh. Then went to school lor. Missed the bus sigh. I reached school late (7.15) Heh sigh today was damn tiring. Maths was quite slack. But wasnt paying much attention. :x Haha nvm la, pascal triangle learn before le. Hmm then erm... Geog was abit o.o Couldn't understand much sigh. Then the crazy 3 period LA, did timed compre. Fell asleep in the middle sigh. The compre damn hard leh D: SIgh. Then 3 period chinese. Even more crazy. Brain dead. Then lunch. haha at least got time to chill and recharge abit. Chem prac test next. Quite ok la. I scared i screw tho :x Hmm physics was quite interesting. Lol then FINALLY over. But still got sj. Our committee just decide who do what then stop le. But ryan wanted us to stone there sigh. Hmm then went home. Fell asleep on the sofa. Haha then dinner and now im here haha. Meh today nth interesting much happened so yeah. Sorry for boring post.

Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to
7th month leh. Abit taboo to talk about this T.T Hmm, im really fortunate no one close to me passed on yet so yeah, there isnt really anyone.

I dont know why i feel this way

JC

Heh im quite committed to this place.

I spend most of my non-mugging time blogging lor. I suppose it does help me de-stress. It will also be good memories to look back on. I happen to have a very fail memory so yeah. Today nothing really interesting and im like quite tired but shall still blog abit.

Ok today was... ok? Hmmm LA lecture was quite interesting. The horny unsex me scene. I shall type it here. Pardon me if there are mistakes. I am not referring to the text. "Under my battlements, come you spirits, that tend on mortal thoughts. Unsex me here and fill me from crown to toe, top full with direst cruelty. Make think my blood and stop up the access and passage to remorse ... Come to my women's breast and take my milk for gall!" Haha omg im so awesome. Ok anw, erm yeah nth much... errrr.... Yeah. haha. Errr... PC was random. Talked about mugging for 30 mins, slept the next 30. Errr... Got back physics test. Fairly pleased. 37/40. Not bad. But I could have gotten full. But nvm, I've worked hard and have been rewarded. Heh. Havent got back chem test. I got a feeling i'll screw that. Sigh chem kinda makes sense to me but i keep making careless mistakes. Maths CT T.T Sigh i seriously think i might fail. D: D: D: Cause when i think it is ok, ill do badly. Now i think i did badly. GG. Hmm and another maths CT is coming up sigh. Haha bio prac is pure -.- Shall not reveal more, some ppl havent take. Ppl who did shd know what im talking about. Hmmmm... yeah then Dactyl comp train. Quite ok la. Covered quite alot in short period of time. But still abit scared. Intracomp is next week T.T dunno if can cover everything or not. Haha but i had fun commanding and owning hx. Heh. Then went home lor. Dad's sick D: GWSGWSGWSGWSGWSGWSGWSGWS!!!! Hmm yeah thats all folks. Who shall i write to today?

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Hey personidonttalktoasmuchasiwouldliketo,
Meh. Ok i really enjoy talking to you. Its just makes me so happy. But I try not to. I dont want to be disturbing you. I know you've got better things to do. Its really awesome when you start talking to me. Meh its hard but i try not to talk to you. I gotta stop deluding myself.

I thought i gotten over you. I was wrong. Very wrong.

JC

Its really late and i should be sleeping but i should post a short one.

INCEPTION IS FREAKING AWESOME. OMG TOTALLY BLOWN MY MIND. SPECIAL EFFECTS WERE AWESOME TOO. WHY AM I TYPING IN CAPS? CAUSE ITS SO FREAKING AWESOMEEEE!!! Whahahaha. I actually went to do pre and post research lor. And a in depth analysis after the film. Hahaha i feel so intelligent. Today nothing much lor. Went cousin house and played DOTA. Hahaha so long never play le, gotten rusty. Hmm yeah i better go sleep soon... BUT NOT BEFORE LETTERS!

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
HAHA PERFECT TIMING
Dear Christopher Nolan, (Just in case you guys has been living under a rock, this guy directed inception)
I think you are freaking awesome. I mean like, woah, the concepts you managed to fuse within your film is so boomz. Heard that you spent 10 years writing this film. Woah kudos to you. Job well done. I wanna meet you and discuss more about this concept of dreams yeah? I think its really cool. Yeah i LOVED the ending you had to the film. You are sick. Very sick :)

I don't wanna hurt you.

JC

I should be doing hw but i shall blog about my eventful day first.

Ok i woke up at 7. Abit too early imo. Stone in living room for like 45 mins. Then left the house. Took mrt to tampines. Saw wanxin.
ME: Why u so early?
WX: I took the bus at 7.30
ME: Righttt...
WX: Where is your uniform?
ME:...
WX: Is it in your bag?
ME: CRAP!!!!!!

Hahaha yeah. I epicly failed and forget to bring my uniform -.- Hahaha still got alot of time so i went home take lor -.- Sigh. Hahaha then later met up with squad then walk to the school. Haha yeah so its started. Generally quite boring la. Got free shirt tho :D Yeah just rehearsal lor. Sigh then i tio stomach ache sigh T.T Haha maybe its the milk. Then sit out for awhile lor. Hmm was very scared i cannot do parade later so i just prayed. Yeah then it got better after lunch. Yeah haha I was abit stoning lor. Only after i put on my rank im like: oh yeah, im sergeant le wtf o.o Haha yeah. Then was quite epic lor. Everyone was highing. Lunch. Ate quite alot. I think we wasted damn lot of food T.T (Note to self: When catering for masses, there is always too much food and too little drinks. make sure to make required adjustment.) Yeah haha then later went starbucks :D :D :D TWAS DAMN COOL. Although i wasted alot of money but the coffee was damn nice. (and i dont think there is alot of caffeine cause im quite tired already) Hmm was damn horny lor. Hahaha, cause there is like totally innocent people (Yihfang) and totally sick ppl (vivien) so its like the blur one will ask about everything and the sick one will kindly explain. Haha pearl necklace -.- Ok lol i better go start on my hw, tmr tio burn. Write letter first.

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Err wtf? Do i have any internet friends? Er er er omg help!
HI RANDOM MAPLE FRIENDS I FORGOT THE IGN OF!
Erm yeah i suppose it was really cool to meet new ppl on maple. Haha but havent played in so long. But it was cool to talk to random ppl while mapling hahaha ok random much. BYE!

Meh. I just wanna talk to you.

JC

OMG ITS FRIDAY THE 13TH! :O HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVAL SOME MORE!

Haha nth bad has happened to me yet, and hopefully will not. Haha today was quite ok i suppose. Abit tiring, maybe cause of pe. FINALLY A PROPER PE LESSON! Played soccer. With tiny goal post. Fail much. Yeah oh yeah anw back tracking. In the morning got geog test. Haha quite easy, crapped alot. But i think i missed out some points :( Hmm then 1st period maths tio pop quiz -.- Bestest lor. Ok la, quite easy. Cept the bonus qns. Its not even humane-.- Who ever can solve it or set this qns is just sick. And horny. Yeah then pe... Next was physics. Nearly fell asleep. So boring that it forces me to sleep (haha get it?) Heh madam illyana (isthathowyouspellit?o.o) was sick so haha free period. Actually have some dairy thing must write but i shall procrastinate till weekend. Hmmm... Haiz bio starting to info overload. I better start mugging. Yup then after that went ate lunch. After lunch still got 1/2 hour before CT so i went back to class and stone. Decided to make good use of my time so i swept the whole class. Omg our class is damn dirty T.T My hands were nearly cramping when i was done. Haha my hard work paid off, our class sparkles like edward now. Yeah anw then CT! haha was quite ok la. Quite pleased with their performance today. Hmm then went home lor. Hahaha the bus ride home was quite epic :D Yeah hahaha thats my day o.o

TODOLIST
Print physics, refill foolscap, file my organizer, LA hw, anything undone from the previous list

Day 7 — Your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Hello ex-crush,
I'm not sure if you read my blog but im pretty sure you know who you are. I just dont wanna say it cause its like weird and awkward. Yeah i dunno, we haven't really been talking much. Yeah i think back then i was still quite young and immature. Didnt really know what love is. You were just an awesome female friend which i mistook for a crush i suppose. Heh I just know it was all in the past. Yeah you still seem really awesome, hope we can catch up soon! :)

All those little things you say and do, it might seem so insignificant, and yet it can make me so darn happy or just break my heart.

JC

Haha today was a epic day :D

Went school quite early, attempted to study geog but ended up talking about bras (?!) Guess who i was talking too? Yeah anw later went down for std1 footdrill. Taught them some new drills. Their basics still not there yet... Must jiayou! Heh heh... Comp train tmr... Then 1st period was geog. It also happens to be geog test. It also happens to be my healthcheckup hahhahaahaa :D Pon geog test ftw. Was gling ms pear. Tried to push to next week but fail. Gonna take tomorrow morning. Haha i dont feel like studying. Yeah anw healthcheck was super epic fail. Tio pms by mrlim cause i nvr wear pe shirt -.- Haha in the end also pointless. Just went there. Nurse ask me if i break my voice, i said yes. Then over le. Hahahaha. In less then 5 minutes. Could have taken the geog test but they started already yeah? Hahaha so decided to burn time in the black box. Hahaha took my height and weight and calculated my BMI. Im 165cm and 48kg. My BMI is 17.6. That is NEARLY underweight :O Omg i need to gain more weight. Haha but im trying to save money T.T Hmm what else ar... Got bio test back. Ok la. At first got 18/25. That is an A. Then saw that mrhan mark wrong a qns so minus 1 mark :( Sigh bye bye A :( Haha its ok i still have a sticker which patty so despoly wants and a chocolate, which i gave huixian. Haha ummmmm... Chem is getting interesting hahahaha :D But i think im quite slow. I should practice more :D

TO DO LIST:
Outline my math assignment (i did in pencil)
Do more chem molar masses thingo
Read LA notes (i nvr read the text, i think im gonna die for text based T.T)
Start revising for EOY (I think i'll start with maths... Nearly forgot everything i've learnt so far)
Get a tuner for my guitar
Find my favourite pick, else i think i'll buy a new one

Thats all i can think of for now. Hmm... Yeah then after school i stayed in class finish hw :O Haha im really becoming a mugger omg :O I will do well this year >:D Yeah then later i rushed down my lunch with kaixiang cass and laura cause i needed to bug mslim before i go CCA. Had initial orders for JNCO/std1 camp. Im pumped up :D Meh but i wanna concentrate on my studies. Meh. Im sorry group 1 members if i dont put in enough effort for the planning in advance yeah? Hmmm after then went running with hx and diane haha. Quite fail. Ended up running alone haha. I think im quite weird. B4 i ran i was cramping. Then i go run no more cramp le. Then i stop the cramp came back -.- Gl ttm. Haha. Ok so i went home lor. The bus driver damn gl. At my stop right, the door open then one lady walked out then immediately door close. I was still trying to squeeze my way through to the door. Gah. Then got off the next stop. Decided to be gl and explore the surroundings abit. haha quite cool. Got lost for abit then later i managed to find the park i was hoboing in the other time. Heng i that time also gl go wander around and found that park lor. If not i'll be lost today hahaha. Yeah anw i realised i walked one super big round back hahaha. Yeah. I met this very cute girl on the way. She ran up to me smiled then ran away. Hahaha ok im not a pedo. Yeah thats my day. Wow quite a long post hahha. Didnt even realise. Shall end here. Oh yeah, still got letters to write :O

Day 6 — A stranger (haha i've thought about who to write about for this hahaha, most ppl just pretend its someone they nvr met b4 but i got a person in mind)

HI RANDOM INDIAN GUY IN HIS MID THIRTIES!
Haha on some mornings i will see you walking to the mrt. I think you are very cute haha. Cause you will run for like 100m, then start walking, then run again and so on. Hahaha. I suppose you are late (haha but i can keep up with you by walking :p) Haha then today you like run to the busstop then turn around then go mrt o.o Try not to be late next time yeah? If you are reading this i would be very freaked out.

Sometimes it's easier to say you don't care instead of trying to explain every reason why you still do.

JC

Ok now for today's post.

Today was bearable. So shuang lor, the long days of the week no school. Hahaha. Hmm quite slack bah. Cause got PC and LA haha. LA got our test back. Didnt do really well but i managed to argue 1.5 marks ahahaha. PC was extra horny cause we were talking about bgr. Hmm... Maths test was epic screwed. GG ttm sia. So hard T.T I think fail leeeeee :( Haiz balls. Tired studying geog abit but epic fail. SIGH. I'll be missing geog test tomorrow. Hopefully i can drag until next week then take. Then can study properly during the weekends. (Shit im sounding like a mugger T.T) Hmm, i dont think there is any hw today. Finished chem in school... Oh yeah need to read the LA notes (Muggerfication complete T.T) Hmm went for smc session later haha. Damn fun. Was angsting and randoming with everyone. Haha took vivien's phone to spam ppl :D Haha ok yeah. Loner back home :( Haha nvm got married to kaiseng hahahahaha :D ima so gay and scandalous :D Haha i know this is random but voyage de lavie seems damn cool. The advertisement at least.
Yeah, haha letter writing time! Woah this one quite abstract.

Day 5 — Your dreams
HI DREAMS!
Ok lets define dreams as what i wanna be when i grow up. Hmmm, when i was young its always been like inventor/scientist. I remember I acted as some professor in my kindergarten play hahaha. Hmm but growing up make me realise that its quite impossible. I'll most probably get some 9-5 job in a office sigh. Hmm i guess i just wanna be satisfied with what im doing with my loved ones around me. That would be good enough. Hmmm dreaming big i wanna be a philosopher. I quite interested in like all those abstract-y stuff like time and space, dimensions and all those weird universe-y stuff haha. Yeah I like thinking (Yeah unlike popular belief, i actually think.
Ok now lets define dreams as those things i have when i sleep. I dont have many. Or maybe i cant remember (my memory is damn fail one) I dont really remember having nightmares... Got some erm, i wouldn't consider scary but i'll be like running from ppl (or monster alphabets in one dream) Yeah i know that means im running away from reality or smth but i dont really care haha. Haha but having less and less la. Haha i think this year too tired for dreams le hahaha. Anw had one ytd, but cannot say hahaha. Secret shhhh....

I know it's weird but i like it when you break my heart. I've learnt to love the pain cause its the only way i know how to feel.

JC

Ok late post. One day late in fact. Shall post twice today haha.

Ok hmm today (yesterday) was quite boring. Went to cdb for the geog thingo. Cass was epic late haha (yeah i know you missed 3 trains -.-) Yeah then quite epic failedly tried to interview ppl. Its like cannot interview on private property and everyone is busy so its quite gah. The first hour was quite bad and little progress was made. Then later we decided to chiong everything haha. Then finished quite fast. Haha ate chicken rice :D Hahaha alot of horny things happened that day. YOU KNOW THAT 1 IN 2 GUYS GONNA HAVE EDS AT LEAST ONCE IN THEIR LIFE! :O Yeah then there was marikita and lots of humping hahahaha. Ok screw this. So horny. Letters!

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Hmmm, Hey JUSTMAN!
You've been an awesome cousin and you are nearly a brother to me. Its really fun playing cards/ps2/psp/com/watching movies/playing mahjong together with you. Heh jiayou with your studies and hope you get that psychology course you wanted :D

Ok as requested by the magnanimous Irene...
Hey twin sister!
Erm, we are twins yeah? Haha i suppose we go have alot in common. We are both pretty boy/girl. Erm weight the same right? Haha height 2cm diff (Jiayou!) Heh. Syncing was always damn fun. Haha you are really nice to talk to. Good luck with any problems you might be facing yeah? (hinthint) Haha i've always wondered, who's older? o.o

Its hard not to talk to you but it is even harder to say goodbye.

JC

Happy National Day.

I should be happy but im not. Ok anw class outing today. Only weiq patty chingying peishan thiri and I turned up. Damn best. Went to the dancing linkway thingy at the esplanade to play bridge awhile. Thiri came then we wanted to go Settler's. Then called it up. It was quite ex and had to stay till 6 so we decided to to go just acia to pig out instead. Quite fun i suppose. Stone there quite long and we had bimbo gossiping session. Yeah then later went to grandma house for mahjong. Played quite well today. (paying attention to the game does help. Got one point I was half watching ndp and playing so i kept losing. Then i just decided to ignore ndp and concentrate on mj. Then start winning again. (Y) Yeah dunno why this year like no feeling one. Haiz. Anw im still really proud to be singaporean. Seeing everyone on tv cheering and waving the Singapore flag really warms my heart. Yeah then went home watched IP man (im not deprived but that was my first time watching it. Missed the starting tho, but i dont think i makes a difference. This kind of show just see fight scene can le) Yeah thats basically my boring day. How i wish i could be with a bunch of my close friends and celebrate national day together. Can just ignore my image and high.

Although i'm not really jumping for joy now i shall procrastinate no more and write the letters.

DAY3
Hey mum and dad.
You guys has been awesome parents. Really. And i love you a lot. But its just hard for me to express it in words, or even actions. Sorry for not living up to your expectations but im not perfect. I wanna be the real me. Not the me you want me to be. I know that you dont want to let me go, but i need some freedom. I need space to grow. You always give me the option: I totally follow your orders or you totally dont care about me. I dont think there is much of a choice is there? I can't survive on my own. If you release the strings of a kite, it will just fly off and crash and burn. But if you keep holding on to it too tightly, it will just be there. Average. Unable to fly higher, to soar in the clear blue skys. Heh. I know church has strained our relationship. You are really against church activities. I know you are scared that i become too devoted or too extreme. But im a big boy now. I know where to stop. I have always been quite insistent on church activities because i really enjoy myself there. I learn many things. A whole auditorium filled with Christians praying together is just so much more different then praying alone. Meh. I dont know how to end this now. I love you.

Ok forget it. I've gotten too emotional to write about my dreams. I dont even think i have any, but thats not the point. The point is that i'll write it tomorrow. Haiz.

There is also another extra letter i would like to write.

Dear Person who is pissed with me,
Im sorry. I really am. Sorry for being an asshole. I was just feeling quite pissed and all. Nagging parents not making things better. I know i shouldnt have taken it out on you. Therefore im sorry. Im not sure if you are ignoring me on purpose or not but i wont force you if you dont want to talk to me. Just wanted to say sorry.

My brain is telling me things. My heart feels otherwise.

JC

Meh.

I dont really feel like blogging right now. Not exactly in the best mood. But I'll try. Did some homework in the morning. Then went out with kaixiang for lunch. Then later went to church. Pi was quite cool. I think sam was awesome. Everyone needs acceptance. Yeah thought about alot of stuff during sermon. I think worship was really awesome. Really sang my heart out. Dont care if i suck (hx, i dont think you are much better yourself) Yeah then went plaza sing for dinner. Yup then went home lor. (Wished i hadn't) Its just hard to call this prison my home. I would say i want freedom but i dont really give a fking shit anymore. And im sorry for not being your perfect little child who comes home right after school everyday and study non-stop. Im sorry for trying to break out of this cramped up cage. Its ok. I can do without freedom. I mean like, prisoners dont die. I just wanna know what crime did i commit to deserve this sentence.

Please define love.

JC

[edit] I'll do the 30-day thing tomorrow. That topic isn't something i wanna think about right now. [/edit]

Today was quite fun :D

I wanted to high later so i drank coffee in the morning. Then later went for prayer meet. Cant wait for pi! :) Yeah anw flag raising as usual. There was actually the tahat sedia thing. Quite cool. We should do it everyday. Dont really take up alot of time. Yeah anw went to the hall for concert. Luckily the air-con was on haha. So quite shuang. Performance was ok la. Just that no one to high with me :( i was zihighing and singing all the random songs lor. Everyone else was stoning. Patty was just pure gay. Hmmm i esp liked the dance, brings me back to danzage. I think sh dance soc is damn cool. Maybe can consider if im not too fail. But sj still my first love :) Yeah anw after that i ddp mel and cass to kfc to eat. Queue super long. So i had to rushed back. Was 3 mins late but no one seemed to care so yeah. Hmm AAR was... ok i suppose. Quite productive and useful. JY for jnco and std1 camp squad! Hmm after that we had our supposed squad pt. Still quite pissed about it la. Some ppl cannot make it. Ok never mind, i know you got your own stuff. Then ask everyone go track and do warmups, take your own sweet time, and dont even do proper warmups. Ok never mind, dont need to be so disciplined. You know hard freaking hard it is just to get everyone just to stand in 2 freaking lines? Ok then start running. Then after 2 rounds ppl just randomly walked off, some go toilet some just go sit down. Wlao then they are just super uncooperative. Gah then dont care le la. Just go run myself. Haiz. Then later sit in with sir wc, mam hx, peter jiayi and rongying abt the structure thingy. Then later went play captain ball with squad + seniors. Damn fun hahaha. Yeah then went home lor. Yup basically thats my day.

DAY 2 - Your Crush (aww shucks...)

Ok lets just get this over and done with.

Hey crush,
I really like you very much. But i know we arent meant to be. Im fine as long as you are happy, so stay happy yeah? Sorry this is so short but that all i have to say.

Tired of loving.

JC

Today was quite epic. FD with the std1 in the morning. Then later just 4hours of lessons haha. Haiz geog urban studies thingy. Sigh. Burn my holiday. It doesnt even sound interesting. Hmm, damn bad headache during maths. Tio gled abit T.T Hmm then chinese slack. Chem also quite slack. Haha then lunch. Then after lunch go back class do hw. Haha nvr been going home early lately (haha geddit?) i think i like school more then home. Anw i finished the chem hw, maths problem sums and the assignment. Now left la reflections which i do not have the qns to. Then erm yeah i think got some sihan my teacher say will send to us. Hmm.. Nth much le bah. Gonna enjoy national day :D Im like totally relaxed slacking now. Usually i procrastinate and slack so i feel bad. But now i feel good about slacking hahah :D But i like dunno what to do haha. Hmm... I think tmr will be quite fun, minus the aar. Hiaz, nvm can look forward to pt. I think it will be damn epic. Hmm yeah i think it gonna be quite fun. Trying not to think about geog test. Haha. Need to chill before the eoy mode sets in. Haiz. I shall work hard D< Lol i dunno what to post abt le. Maybe i shall do the 30 day thingy haha (wait i go find) (ok found it)

Day 1 — Your best friend
Day 2 — Your crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind; good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Ok lets start with day 1.

Dear best friend(s), I dont wanna be pian xin yeah. Chronological order yeah :D

HI PATTY!
I think you are one of my first few male friend in dhs haha. Thanks for all the water and stuff yeah? I think i go to your house the most. haha anw cont being gay yeah?

HI MELVIN!
Sup bro, you've been a really awesome friend and mh/gt sifu. We know each others account and everything yeah? Your blog on my dashboard lol. Erm have fun yeah.

HI CASS!
I DID NOT PUT YOU UNDER MELVIN ON PURPOSE (or did i?) Anw i think you are randomly horny which makes you extremely amusing yeah. You'll been an awesome friend to talk to.

HI LAURA!
Heh i know we'll been classmates since year1 but only after we parted then we became closer yeah? Must have been all those boring chinese lessons. Gotta cheer up yeah? I'll always be here for you.

HI KAIXAING!
Thanks for being my mum. Come to your women's breast and exchange your milk for gall. Ok i have no idea what was that for. Yeah, you've been a great friend to share problems with and gay with omgididnotjustsaythatyoudidntseeanything. You better not bottle up your feelings yeah?

HI GOD!
Hehe i know this is weird, you might be God but you are still my best friend. Thanks for always being there and giving me hope when i need it :)

HI ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS WHO ARE NOT MENTIONED ABOVE!
Yeah im kinda lazy to go write to everyone la so sorry. Thanks for being my friend yeah? If you really that petty and want your name on my blog just tell me yeah? I'll add it in. (i gotta feeling im gonna be damn busy) I bet i got alot of stalkers one hahaha.

YEAH OK THATS ALL FOLKS!

Just that one moment was enough to take my breath away.

JC

>.<

Ok today was quite normal. Started off with physics test. I dont think i screwed so its ok. (gah i got one question wrong, never read properly...) Haiz rest of the day was ok bah. Ace was damn epic hahaha. Linmin got epic owned. Haiz got the stupid geog performance task thingy. Burn my weekend. Balls. Haiz ok at least not so stress now. Must chill abit.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!! Ok im highing. Hahaha we gonna have pt on friday. So cool :D hope we get a good attendance. Haha anw watching glee now, also cant concentrate on blogging so i shall stop here. CHILL GUYS! (and in case shi ting gl, and girls)

I will not be broken. I am the ONE.

JC

Today was surprisingly ok.

Had chinese test and chem test. Both relatively easy. Haiz physics tmr :O JYJYJYYYYYYY!!!!
Hmm yeah nothing much today lor. Realised how crazily fast we were in maths. Hmm yeah got to take a nap during LA haha. Hiaz i just totally drifted off to do other things. Forgot abt blogging. Haha anw quite late le. Mum gging i better go sleep. Gdnight all.

Sorry.

JC

Today was quite epicly boring.

DHSRP Symposium. Haiz. Boring ttm. Just listen to the random presentations lor. Then got my phone confiscated during the pac thingy. Damn epic. Gah. I feel asleep hiaz. Cause really damn boring. Then erm, bio prac. Mr han was damn lame: "Can you all be the old name for thailand? Siam." Hahaha ok nvm random. Then std1 comp train. Quite ok bah. Covered some stuff. Hmm yup thats my day.

And this part is dedicated to a friend of mine. I know you are going through some problems now. But i know you will make it through. You are strong. I really respect you alot, so keep being awesome yeah? :) I'll pray for you.

I need to stop deluding myself

JC

Today was quite failed.

Morning woke up did some hw (OH CRAP HAVENT DO MATHS YET :O)
Then erm lunch. After lunch went library to meet diane angelina and yifei to mug. Quite fail but nvm. Then later went grandma house and sleep. The weather today was damn good for sleeping lor. Hmm dinner. Then after dinner mugged abit more then went home. Got home and mum force me do some chinese thingy... Haiz. Yup thats basically my day. Oh yeah, mum? I wont even bother to be myself ever again. I'll just be your perfect little boy yeah.
Happy now?

shatters

JC