Heh for once im posting in the morning. Im now in school mugging with yifei angelina and diane. I should be studying but im kinda stuck and im quite peaced so i shall rant here for awhile.

Day started off bad. Wanted to do chem but forgot the ans sheet, periodic table and correction tape. Best. Did anw but now im stuck. Screw. And now there is this stupid maths test. Urgh. Like we dont have enough stuff to do during the holiday. Haiz. Now im totally not in the mood to mug. Would go run if i brought shorts (ARGH SO PEACED WITH MYSELF) Meh. I was never a study-person so its damn hard for me to mug. But I force myself. I dont know why but I do. Maybe its because i dont want my parents to be disappointed in me, tho they already are. Maybe i want the sense of sastisfaction of doing well in the exams. Maybe i just wanna distract myself with something, so i wont think too much about other stuff. But its making me tired. I'm tired of doing something i dont like. I'm tired of being something i'm not. I'm tired of having to play the good boy for my parents. I'm tired of always pretending to be happy, even when im dying inside. I'm tired of keeping everything inside. I'm tired of waiting for something that will never come. I'm tired of loving. It just sucks that the people you fall in love with can never love you back. I'm just tired. I just wanna sleep.

And never wake up.

JC