Sigh been quite emo today. I also dont know why. Everything i suppose. Stayed up quite long last night thinking about stuff. So was quite tired today. Heh after school i totally chui le. Sorry if I affected anyone. Its just hard to always wear that mask. The thing you want so bad, the thing you are willing to sacrifice so much for just slipping through your fingers. It also sucks that the fact that you chose to ignore is highlighted, bold and font size 72. Not helpful. It just sucks that no matter how hard you try, you just can make a difference. Helpless. I haven't felt like this in a long time. I try not to. Because i know it will hurt others. I know alot of people read my blog. I shouldn't even be posting about this. I should happily tell you about how my day went. Like how i always do. But i suppose i need somewhere to pour out my thoughts. And for today, let it be here. I don't like telling other people personally. It just burdens them even more. Like they dont have enough problems on their own. And dont take this the other way round. I know im being a stupid hypocrite but if you have any problems, I'm always here. I just feel that i would want to help if any of my friends are going through any problems. Heh i just realise that everyone would think this way :x But i dont know. I just want my friends to be happy.

Lean On Me:

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Lean on me...

Heh i suppose blasting glee songs is making me feel better. Sorry for the ranting. Anw today was ok bah. LA roleplay went considerably well. There is this mosquito that bit my radial pulse. Smart little fella. Hmm i think im doing parade commanding again tmr. Cause peter is not here. OMG i forgot to blog about this ytd. Our dear friend peter is sick :O Just wanna say: GET WELL SOON PETER!!!!!!! We all miss you very much :D Dont worry we will come bug you when we are free yeah? Just rest well and GWS!!!!!!! Oh yeah i saw this email about The annual Youth Volunteer Involvement Programme (YVIP). To say the least, i am extremely interested. This seems really really cool. Meaningful way to spend the holiday. But im not sure. Need to ask parents. And i will have to miss some of those activities cause im going overseas during the holiday. Hmmm i'll try to go. ANYONE WANTS JOIN WITH ME???? Must tell me hor :D

It still hurts.

JC