Its a saturday and im at home alone. Studying. Damn i lead a sad life. Heh did some geog in the morning. And the LA compre. Im too lazy to do the summary. Haiz. Shall go do maths later. But blog first. I dont really have anything to say about my day, cept monotonous mugging. I suppose im in the mood to do some ranting.

Its not the eoy that is getting me down. Surprisingly i feel kinda confident about eoy, tho still alot of things i have not studies but meh, i dont really care anymore. I've been putting alot of importance on grades. Too much i think. I suppose i've been neglecting my friends alot. I dont see how those As and A+s can ever ever measure up to my family and friends. Marks are just numbers on a piece of paper. Your friends and family are those that will stick with you through your life. Your full marks wont come help you up when you fall down. You say: "Grades affect your future and your job" I say bullshit. Does it really matter if you got a B instead of an A? It is who you are that really matters. Your personality. Your CHARACTER. These are the things that will help you survive in this cruel world. Not results.

If you ask me what i want to be when i grow up, what are my ambitions? I would tell you I have no idea. I dont want to be a doctor or lawyer, at least not for the high pay. I think it all boils down to one question. The meaning of life. What do you want to achieve out of your life. No one is immortal. The next thing i will say might get me into some awkward situations with my Christian friends but i shall say it anyway. I don't believe in life after death. I dont believe that we will all go to heaven after we die. Dont get me wrong. I am still a Christian and i still believe in God. Im am a Christian because i believe in the values of Christianity. I believe God will help me become a better person. I don't pray and praise just so i can go to heaven after I die. That ain't true faith. That is why i choose not to believe in life after death. It makes life so much more meaningful. So much more significant. Why would you care about life if you are going to spend an eternity in heaven anyway. That is why i choose to believe that the short span of 80+ or perhaps 90 years was all i am going to get. This way, i will appreciate life so much more. I will treasure every second of my life, cause this is the only life i will ever have.

What I want to do with my life? Call me selfish but it is not my aspiration to find a cure for aids or solve the world's hunger problems. Nope im not that awesome. I think the most important thing in life is to be happy. Yeah. That's it. Whats the point of working so hard, making millions of dollars. You'll still die like everyone else. Like a homeless person on the street. Wealth will not lead to happiness. Happiness is an emotion. You can choose to be happy. If you decide to be emo and depressed everyday, you will be emo and depressed everyday. You can win the lottery and still feel sad. No one can help you be happy. Only yourself. If you want to wallow in self despair, your life will be a very miserable one. My advice? Be happy. You yourself have to be the one who decides to be happy. Dont just sit there waiting for something nice to come your way before you start feeling happy. Be happy every single moment of your life. Because if you dont, it will just mean you will lose that happy moment forever. I can very confidently say there are poor people in Africa are much happier compared to bill gates. I came across this photo some time ago. I am not sure which country this girl is from, or her financial status but i can tell one thing. She is happy. Her smile is just so inspiring.
Link: http://www.flickr.com/photos/bu7amd/3689408574

But of course, all these things i am saying is just theory. Its not possible to be happy 24/7. Life has its ups and down. There are beautiful moments you wish could last forever. There are also ugly moments you wish will pass quickly. I too have my sad moments. I am human too. I might seem to be always smiling, always laughing, happy-go-lucky. But there are nights when i lie in bed and cry. There is no one who is forever happy. But there are people who choose to get over their unhappiness. There are people who decide that there is no reason to be stuck in the past. Move on. If you keep looking at the rear-view mirror, you will fail to see the beautiful scenery in front. Dont let unhappiness cloud your view. Wipe away all the sadness from your windscreen and view you life with optimism. That is my secret to happiness.

I know this is filled with cliches but yeah, that is what i feel. And i hope it might have inspired some people out there. It wasnt even supposed to be so long. I cant even remember what i was posting about... (scrolls back up to check) Oh yeah. Results. Well like all essays we have to link back to the point yeah? Hmmm... This seems kinda weird after the spammage of "be happy!" but im really sorry to everyone i've neglected in my pointless race for good results. I suppose posting this, i have also inspired myself in someway. It has reminded me to live life to the fullest.

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
If you Smile through your pain and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

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That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

I just wish it could be genuine

JC